Welcome to the 30’s, Suki

Celebrating the New Year in SF

They say life begins at 30. Truer words couldn’t have been said. Growing up wasn’t easy. I didn’t have the ideal childhood meaning I missed out on all sorts of pop culture trends and silly things like carnivals, riding a bike, learning how to swim etc so for the past few years I’ve been like a kid at a candy store however my candy is the spice of life and all it has to offer.

For my 30th birthday I skipped out on any organized parties or events. I didn’t want frilly fanfare. I just wanted to reconnect with who I was and enter my 30’s with a new sense of purpose and embrace entering true adulthood by being at one with myself so what better than the north coast of California. A place that’s rural at heart, raw in spirit, and conservative.  I spent a week exploring the sights of sounds of the Mendocino coast while internally going crazy that there was no cell phone signal to be found anywhere and much to my dismay I noticed this was actually done on purpose. The people of this area had banned all cell towers. Go figure. Talk about truly disconnecting and reconnecting with yourself. This is the place to do it and go stir crazy in the process however I must admit it felt nice to just be at peace and not feel the vibration of your phone and not get any email/text alerts.

After a week of reflection, I realized I wasn’t going to make any resolutions for the new year simply because I don’t believe in them and I never stick to them anyway. Instead I’m going to work on creating a better version of me.  Along the course of life, I’ve realized that I’ve lost what I once stood for. I’ve gotten lazy, allowed certain behaviors to occupy my life, and lost sight of myself all while jeopardizing my personality and who I am. That simply can not continue into 2011. I know it’ll take time to regain who I was and I’m not expecting an overnight miracle but I know I’ll feel a lot better once I’ve embraced myself again.

While staring off into the beautiful blue ocean and the bright sky, I also realized that while I appreciate nature I also can’t be without the internet. It’s sad but it’s who I am. It ties me to the friends I love and have met via social media so to be without that pleasure is something I can’t live without so while I may have grown up a small town girl I could never go back to that again however I did realize the importance of being one with nature, appreciating the beauty around me, and disconnecting. Those are important aspects of life.

It’s now been two days into my 30th birthday, I can’t tell you what it feels like yet or if “life” truly has begun. I’m guessing it’s a gradual process that takes place over a decade and at 40 I’ll be able to diagnose the change but for now it feels surreal and it’s hard to imagine that number and take it in however I’m still as optimistic as ever and looking forward to the new year.

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  • http://twitter.com/SimonOh Simon Oh

    Great story that you’ve posted and I can truly relate to the difficulties you had during your childhood. I also agree with your notion regarding the importance of friendships and social media. That’s how I made even more friends than ever before including you! Keep up the great work!

    • http://www.sukhrajbeasla.com Sukhraj Beasla

      Thank you Simon. I agree with you. I’ve met so many wonderful people (including yourself) via social media and I’m looking forward to meeting even more. I’ve realized that people are genuine and there are some valuable connections to be made. I would never want to be away from that. :)

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